THE INTERVALS by THE LISBON WEDDING PHOTOGRAPHER
The wedding photographer would be lying if he said that late at night I still have the same energy that when I started the day, sometimes down, in the way of groom and bride’s home, especially the groom, full of that nervous that appears to me since my first one and, no matter how much I do, there is no way to let go of me. Since the beginning, I always thought that, as time went on, it will go away and the skill would bring me that calm and, at some point, already he, the nervous one, would have gone to another parish and stopped boring me, every time I start to prepare my tools in the day before and, sometimes, not even to sleep gives me rest. After some time, I started to think that something was wrong with me, that would be a lack of confidence, that maybe I was not cut out for this, photographing weddings, and, maybe, one of these days would be better to find something else.
So, since I am a photographer for their, weddings, it would be better to join with some people that do the same and find out what they tell about the subject. That is how the wedding photographer asked and it was accepted in one of those forums on the net and there, when I was trying to find how it works, one of the first discussion subjects he found was exactly about that annoying thing that, after all, took all the colleagues who exercised this profession. Conversations lead to conversations and everybody comes to the conclusion that this nervous is because of the love for what we do, inside arms and legs, of tight stomachs, and that irritating irritation since we get the first foot out of bed, that we can not get in time, I am already late and I am still here, this can not happen, it is always the same thing, the traffic, well…so, of it is like that with them too, it is because that is how it should be and, maybe, when one day I stop to feeling it, the nervous, perhaps the love was gone.
Until now it did not have gone away, rest assured because since the first photo is done, it goes away for I do not know where. But this love does not mean that the photographer is always like this all day. Because I own to your sincerity, there are some moments that are so boring that it seems that the time does not want to pass. Although a wedding day is a constant offer of photographs I love so much, late at night, not even those that like so much to have fun at the party will do it, they still are there with the will, but not with the energy and, at the same time, not all the rituals of day are complete. It is late, also the wedding photographer starts to feel sleepy coming and there is no way to remember the cut of the wedding cake, the single ladies did not jump yet, through the bridal bouquet and, without it, there is no way to know who is getting married next. In those intervals, late at night, the wedding photographer waits, everything is done except what remains to be done and, stoically, he waits for the moment of the moments that still are missing, without any nervousness. Late at night. Only late at night.