BEFORE BEGINNING by the WEDDING PHOTOGRAPHER
One of my big concerns when I’m in wedding photography, as I set off on yet another daily adventure with a groom and bride, who were kind enough to choose me as a chronicler of their big day, is whether I’ll be able to avoid any repetition compared to what I’ve taken from previous weddings. Truth be told, I’ve never had that problem when viewed in hindsight. When, already in the quiet of my office and with the photos ready to be chosen, edited, and placed in a book that will serve as a testimony of what was, how it was, and when it was, I never encountered that problem. But the day before, when I start charging the batteries of the cameras, cleaning the lenses, and resetting the settings that they, the cameras, need in order to work the way I want in each part of the day, a kind of nervousness starts to run through my arms, a need to breathe more deeply from time to time and…
… A night’s sleep that insists on not happening, do I have everything in the bag? have I charged all the batteries? will the alarm clock wake me up on time? let’s see, again, if I’ve marked the right time, is the address in the GPS, in Alentejo, really the groom? What bothers me is that none of this has ever failed and my brain bastard insists on making fun of me and, every time, he puts these doubts in my mind so that I stay the next day for coffee and, cynically, tell me, then, already at the time of departure, you see, I had told you that everything was fine. I, who should know him so well, still fall for the same trap every time. To keep me quiet annoys me even more, see if you arrive in time, will you manage not to repeat yourself? Look, grooms are all the same and they all do the same thing, if it were up to me I’d be sick of it. Yeah, don’t worry, some of my colleagues in a wedding photographers group I belong to tell me, it’s the same with us and the day they, the brains, stop caring and stop nagging is a sign that it no longer makes sense and it’s not worth coming back for another wedding.
Maybe it’s true and it’s just his envy, because as soon as I get to the first agreed place, usually the groom’s house, and take one of my cameras, after choosing the lens, in front of my right eye, I stop listening to him, I don’t pay any attention to him from then on and for the rest of the day, I turn into the wedding photographer that he, my brain, is so envious of, and jealous of, and all those doubts end until the task is accomplished. Of course, he’s vindictive, the next day eve of another wedding photographer adventure, he’ll get on my nerves again with all his doubts. But since I’m told that’s just the way it is, that it’s a good sign, I will leave with it.